D-Day

It's D-day for me, as in departure day. I am leaving Portland headed toward the first day of the rest of my life. And will return a different woman. I have struggled with weight my whole life and tried numerous different diets to no avail. After years I finally decided to contact a professional and found out that I have a hormone problem, a thyroid problem and a metabolic disorder. A triple threat of obesity. I have been diligently working hard for the past two years to improve my health and change my life style. I now eat differently, exersize and have lost 44 pounds. The climax of my journey comes tomorrow when I will enter the hospital and have a sleeve gastrectomy to help lose the remaining 125lbs of excess weight that I carry. When I leave the hospital on Thursday a new part of my journey begins. One that will allow me to live life to the fullest. A life where u can fit confortable in an airplane seat, where I can ride roller coasters, and where I can walk my dog around the block with out needing an inhaler or a nap afterward. I am so excited to be entering this phase of my life. Following the recovery from my surgery I will also be entering my first nursing classes. I will finally be able to look my patients in the eye and discuss their health and what they need to improve upon without feeling like a hypocrite.

My bus to the hospital leaves in 30 mins. SO EXCITED!!!! 

Precious time

It is with a heavy heart that I write this today.  I realize now how selfish I have been.  I have allowed life to get in the way of what is important and I took time for granted. I thought that if I could just do what needed to be done then I would have time later for the important stuff like family and friends.  So I have gone about my life working, going to school and neglecting to spend time with the people that are important to me. There was always an excuse, too tired, too much homework, needed to study and now I realize how stupid those excuses are.  Friends and family should be a priority in life because u never know when u will run out of time. My aunt Betty lives in the same town as I do and it has been maybe two years since I have seen her and spent any quality time with her and now there is no time left. She passed away this morning and has joined many of our other family members above to watch over us. Aunt Betty was the kindest most wonderful person that I have ever known. I hope she is currently celebrating the fact that she is no longer in pain and that she has been reunited with the many others that we miss so dearly. 

My goal as human as of today is to be a better person, a person like Betty. Someone who knows the importance of family.